Sorry Ain’t Enough

road2

Say you’re sorry, like it’s a big deal.

Life of regrets, now we’re going downhill.

Wishing you could change what you can

But you ain’t got the guts of a real man.

So you say you’re sorry it ended this way

Sorry for all the things you did and did say.

I said I understand, and it’s all forgiven

But as the days go by, I can’t stop wondering.

What type of sorry is this?

When you could change it if you wish,

Back to the way it was before

Instead of bolting down the door.

Since when were the opinions of others

More important than one who bothers.

Who wants nothing but the best for you

And instead has to stand outside and spue?

There’s never a one-way track,

Always a way out the back.

Spurn it if you must, it still exists.

Don’t need your petty excuses.

Sorry, I hurt you – it ain’t nothing

Till you put feet to words and fix your actions.

Sorry ain’t really sorry if it don’t fix

This wretched skewed-up mix.

I don’t need empty sorry’s

Shrugging shoulders like a pointless envoy.

This diplomacy has got me sick inside.

Say what you mean or get out of my sight.

I’m not interested in words

That are said for the ears of lil’ birds.

I’d rather hear nothing and see action.

Some real steel – some real retraction.

All the gold and jewels couldn’t sweeten it up.

Sorry ain’t enough.

-

-

Story behind the poem:

Saying sorry is not enough. There needs to be actions that attempt to repair what was damaged. Otherwise sorry is just an empty word that isn’t enough.

GZ

photo by Adriano Gonçalves

Hugs for Free

girl blanket

It never leaves, never breaks up.
Never walks away, it’s always there to stay.
Keeps on loving you when you’re in a dump,
It’ll comfort you when all you wanna do is cry all day.

We throw it round, bash it up, and leave it on the ground.
Never with anything to say back, it never resents.
We can stab it in the back, push it down,
But it always gives out everything it can send.

At the end of a long tiring day, I stumble home for hugs,
I forget to treat it well and look after it – so neglected.
Never even thinking about all the things it does.
And even then it’s keeping me so warm and protected.

Maybe I should give it a wash, and keep it nice and clean,
Smooth out the wrinkles, and keep it off the floor.
I know that if I give it just that little bit of sheen
It’ll just keep going even longer and give out more.

I wish that I could be a friend for others like my blanket is to me,
No tit for tat, always there to give a hand or comfort.
Just like my blanket is what I want to be:
Giving out everything for nothing in return – my blanket.

Story behind the poem:
Yes, Em, this is for you. I thought I’d do something less serious than usual, but seriously, have you ever thought about your blanket and all the stuff it does for you?
My Blanket: Giving hugs for free since 1995. :D
GZ

 

photos by A Syed and Leslie Collingridge

Eagle’s Fifth

embers

Under a full moon, in the misty border of Germania
Stood a soldier, with his armour, while it was snowing.
As the moon’s light radiated from her,
He looked longingly at the embers glowing.

As the wind chilled his skin, he shivered.
Goosebumps prickled, rattled the sword in his sheath.
He could feel his eyes closing fast
Weary, untried soldier of the eagle’s Eighth.

His forefathers had fought and bled on this soil
This ground upon which he now stood was built with blood.
The peace that rested upon the land was like a bubble.
All it takes is a touch and it will bust.

His cheeks’ ruddy glow slowly turned to blue,
His pulse began to drop, his eyelids grew weak.
Them feet were growing tired, his arms sore.
His mind went leaping into wonderland, as it sought relief.

Soldier of the Eighth – what could possibly go wrong?
Best quality, latest gear – an unparallelled world power.
Fifteen years of peace, however, was almost over.
Right at that moment came an unseen menace – closer by the hour.

He opened his eyes. Must have dozed off. The fire had burnt out.
The stars above stared down at him, peaking through gathering clouds.
The great eagle and it’s power had fallen asleep.
The grip of death was taking hold o’er the villages and towns.

Their houses built and furnished, the well-off celebrated.
The poor and homeless lay in the streets forgotten.
Years of hard-work was now replaced with party and gaiety,
And the usurpers gloated o’er the ill-gained goods they’d gotten.

Swords now were hung above the fire, memories of old.
The training grounds were used for fun now. No more tears and pain.
Never had there been better days, or so it seemed.
For everything comes with a cost – and there’s a lot of it unpaid.

Something inside his head is telling him to stay awake.
But the cold is so harsh, and his stomach is too full.
He leans against the stone parapet, staring into the night.
It was so dark and lonely out there deep in the woods.

Night after night, he had stood here, waiting to sound the alarm.
Never had it come and now he was just a part of the scenery.
His companion already asleep on duty – alone in the watchtower
The most boring job on his itinerary.

He signed up to fight, but stand watch was all he really ever did.
Starting to get sick of this monotony. Oh, for a real mission.
He finally surrendered. Let his head slide to rest.
His mind zoned out – and he plunged into oblivion.

Meanwhile, as the watchmen slept in their imagined security -
Strode forth quietly a warrior from the depths of the darkness.
The piercing blue eyes narrowed as they rested on the fort,
His body tense and hard as he turned back to the wilderness.

A growling stomach gnawed inside him, his sword blunt and chipped.
Cupped his hands and let out three low hoots like that of an owl.
Turned back to gaze at the fort that thought they were untouchable.
Then he was swallowed up into the darkness and the bitter cold.

Not a man in that fort stirred – it was too cold to move.
Their blankets lulled them asleep as their fires burnt low.
None of them saw the grass start moving:
Hundreds of silhouettes moving in a stealthy row.

From the depths of the darkness when all seemed safe.
Emerged these shadows of men hardened by strife.
Invisible, yet they were there – had been for years.
Waiting patiently to strike. Tonight would be the night.

Blind to the danger, impervious to the warnings,
The Eagle’s Eighth was sound asleep.
Forgetting what it was that got them to this place,
In the morning, the people of the earth would weep.

-

Story behind the poem:
It rings true for many world powers, that they’re greatest enemies were themselves. After achieving amazing things, they drifted away. They got rich and powerful, and forgot that it was through hard work, sweat, blood, and tears, that they got there. They start to abuse the blessings they have, and become blind to the rot in their society. Eventually, as time goes by, an enemy will rise who will be their downfall. It’s only a matter of time. Take heed if you think you stand, lest you fall.
My poem is completely fictional, but I hope you can sort of see what I was trying to bring out. All the old heads weren’t there, the experienced ones. It was a new generation who had forgotten the important things in life. A generation who were of the invincible mindset and forgot that winning is more than just superior weapons, etc. A generation who forgot to be prepared for anything.
GZ

coal photo by Dennis Taufenbach, smoke graphics by http://www.sxc.hu/profile/zuwiu, and soldier images from Centurian and The Eagle.

Breath Now

swimming

I’ll take another breath now

I’m still alive now

Now it’s time to let it all out!

-

Taking all my past down

Welcome to a takedown,

A new storyline is gonna be found!

-

I’m a new man

In a brave new land

Gonna take my chance and stand.

-

Feel those walls fall down

See the foe break down.

Spread it through the town!

-

Take a deep breath now!

There’s giants all about-

Take a deep breath now!

-

See the armies rise up

The big guns pull up,

This is where it all stops.

-

Take a deep breath now . . .

 

 

-

-

Story behind the poem:

That moment where you feel invincible because you’re still alive, and as you do, you feel the next big battle coming. Take a breath while you can.

GZ

 

photo by Janusz Gawron

Blackhole

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

Whenever she’s around, I gotta wait.

My eyes enlarge and my heart palpitates.

If I manage to not faint, I start walking queer and quaint.

Inexplicably got the shakes. I quiver and I quake

When she ain’t in town, I burn and pine down

till I’m nothing found but tears on the hard ground.

A severe case of illness got lost in a wilderness.

Been to many physicians, but none of them can fix this.

Just gotta practice my immunity to her individuality

But her incredibility leaves me in a un-ending eternity.

Superman, it’s kryptonite! Too late and we’re going down alright!

Mayday mayday, hold tight. Tis something we can’t fight.

Like some bottomless hole that tortures the expectant soul,

On and on we go till we find there’s nothing  to hold.

So we’re not going solo, but not the pair we thought of

Cause it’s the way it goes oh, no matter what we try though.

Like a rainbow disappears, comes back with the greatest of your fears!

Try to touch and find she ain’t there – gone running down the stairs.

Cinderella dream becomes a nightmare – you’re the prince here

And she’s somewhere out there.

Look but don’t touch, this is what it’s all about.

Mayday, we’re going down, drowning in a sea of doubt.

Went in a wormhole ended in a blackhole

Chasing a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow!

Look but don’t touch, I’m going mad trying to figure if I’m out!

All these figures in my head and I’m just spinning all about

Slap and a kiss, is that all that there really is?

Is this all just something inside, what did I miss?

Lies in my head, won’t let me go to bed

Always trying to clear my head, but you’re always three steps ahead.

She loves me, she loves me not, flowers can’t tell if it’s real or it’s not.

This mission is abort but it’s too late now that we’re caught.

-

-

Story behind the poem:

Every person has a chink in their armour. And there’s nothing quite as frustrating as when someone can hold you in their hand, yet you have no idea whether they’re serious, they’re just playing, or they have no idea.

GZ

 

photo by Collwyn Cleveland