So Much Love

Capture

Is it crae that i still think our time was great
Is it insane to say I love you though i knew you were fake?
How can i love you and yet feel hate?

It’s not as though you left me any scars
Not as though you left me in the dark
I was the one who failed to play my part

But play the unrighteous hypocrite as the sun shines, you surely did
Point the finger while you lived in it

Is this the edge of insanity?
Wasn’t the pain enough for me?
Can’t these thoughts just begone for all eternity?

So much love, so much hate
Do you wait? Does thy breathe abate?
To me, dost thou have any love? Or dost thou only hate?

A Zombie

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I remember rainy days – we’d laugh and play

Now I just sit in a corner and waste away

Those were the days – we were first out the blocks

Those were the days, we raced the clocks

Now we languish for want of passion

Now we faint before we see action

We had a raging fire in the bones

Now there’s just dying embers and coals

It once seemed like it would never end

But now it feels like we’re already dead

We were the king, the empire, the tyrant

Now we’re the peasant, the island, the defendant

It once seemed we had bulletproof vests

Now it’s like we got inside out chests

One day we were young and vibrant

Now we’re old and decadent

Once we had the strength of a thousand horses

Now we are carried away by the brook’s courses

I remember days, living high and free

Now it seems, I see more a zombie than me

The Glory and the Vice

People fight hardest what they fear the most
Actions speak louder than public oaths
It’s not what they say, but what they do
They flatter while they really despise you
They say they’re right, they’re not lonely
But at night, you hear them cry forlornly
Weak, but they make no move to be strong
They say you matter but they really mean ‘so long’
They build you up once, tear you down thrice
They want loyal friends, but still want all their vice
They want the victory – but don’t want the race
They desire true love, but cannot do what it takes
Non est sine successu defectum
If this be what they are, leave and let them

Used

Twas as the tears did fall

I wished we never happened at all

Wished I had never heard your name

Never have to feel my heart break again

But as the days have dragged on

And I stumble on alone

Here in this mansion of my mind

Filled with ghosts I fight at night

Is the deep painful truth

That I was the reason I failed you.

I regret so many things I did

Things I did for a life of no regrets

Now the most I regret, is that you were used

I regret the fact that I abused

The very one I vowed to protect

Now I find myself to neglect.

The very thing I swore not to do

Is what I did to you.

And I can’t make it better.

Can’t break out of my own fetters.

Can’t help myself be whole

So how can I fix the damage to your soul?

I saw, yet I was blind –

Starstruck lovers, one of a kind

Mirages and hallucinogens

Clear away, the truth condemns

So often those we swear to defend

Are those we ourselves offend

We walk away and swear

That we did everything we could to be fair

But the bitter fact is that

We stole, and didn’t give back

We lied, cheated, and extorted

And now we sit inside our forts

Licking our wounds, pointing fingers

Through glass windows that are really one-way mirrors

Till finally, we find that all we can do

Is walk away to find something new

Some makeshift replacement

For the hole we made in placement

Soon this heart will just be a jigsaw

Full of pieces that don’t fit at all

Because bit by bit

I’ve thrown away each little piece.

Replaced it with other people’s pieces

That will never bring me peace

 

Full of pieces that don’t fit

We’re falling apart, bit by bit.