Twas as the tears did fall
I wished we never happened at all
Wished I had never heard your name
Never have to feel my heart break again
But as the days have dragged on
And I stumble on alone
Here in this mansion of my mind
Filled with ghosts I fight at night
Is the deep painful truth
That I was the reason I failed you.
I regret so many things I did
Things I did for a life of no regrets
Now the most I regret, is that you were used
I regret the fact that I abused
The very one I vowed to protect
Now I find myself to neglect.
The very thing I swore not to do
Is what I did to you.
And I can’t make it better.
Can’t break out of my own fetters.
Can’t help myself be whole
So how can I fix the damage to your soul?
I saw, yet I was blind –
Starstruck lovers, one of a kind
Mirages and hallucinogens
Clear away, the truth condemns
So often those we swear to defend
Are those we ourselves offend
We walk away and swear
That we did everything we could to be fair
But the bitter fact is that
We stole, and didn’t give back
We lied, cheated, and extorted
And now we sit inside our forts
Licking our wounds, pointing fingers
Through glass windows that are really one-way mirrors
Till finally, we find that all we can do
Is walk away to find something new
Some makeshift replacement
For the hole we made in placement
Soon this heart will just be a jigsaw
Full of pieces that don’t fit at all
Because bit by bit
I’ve thrown away each little piece.
Replaced it with other people’s pieces
That will never bring me peace
Full of pieces that don’t fit
We’re falling apart, bit by bit.