What if – the next time we meet
We could be honest?
Tell what really lies in our hearts
Bare our souls in sharp daylight?
What if we could speak, face to face
Without having a plastic mask in place?
No foolish games left to play.
Honesty in every word we say?
What if I could speak without fear
Tell you of all the ruin in here
The days I’ve wasted away
Tell you that us being apart is not okay?
Tell you of all the regrets that cluster
Every time the courage I muster
To look through past memories
At the smiles and happiness
What if I could be open?
And despite my show, I’m really broken?
Not care that I’m meant to be strong
Show my wounds and say I can’t go on.
What if we could talk openly for once
Not fear that the other will judge
Feel instead, the warm arms of love
That can heal scars that still leak blood?
What if you could be honest with me?
Actually talk instead of just leave?
What if you could tell me what you feel?
Not riddles, not plays, just emotions that are real?
What if we could be honest? Let our tears fall.
I grow weary of all this shallow talk
If we can’t resolve, then can’t we forgive?
Let each one of us go free to live?
If only we could talk honest
These things I could confess
That I hate myself for failing you
And deep inside I still love you
If I could, I’d go back and change it all
Be the person I should’ve been all along
And there are nights when I dream
That you’re with me and the sky’s clear
But reality is – I’m a broken, ruined and lost
A weak, floundering mess.
Guess I’ll just keep going on and trying my best
Maybe one day – one day we can be honest