You had me – even after you walked all over my heart
But now you slither back with your silly lies – I depart
Don’t have time to play a masquerade – no action, all wordplay
I’m leaving you forever now – you’ll never find me after today.
I want the real you, not a mask. I want truth not your lies
It seems what I ask is too much for you, too much to confide
So I’m taking the boltcutters and setting myself free
You had me – but now you’ve forever lost me
You all think you’re something special
Like you’re some human who’s actually an angel
Just covering up and disguised as the devil.
Wait, I may have said it backwards –
You’re like a human who’s actually the devil
Just covering up and disguised as an angel.
Never mind, does it matter?
When the fire ceases and smoke scatters
I still lay here shattered
To peer behind the disguise is truly
One thing that haunts me
As the truth slowly dawns on me
You’re truly hideous to behold
If only you didn’t glitter like gold
Not all that glitters is gold
A couple of bright red roses,
Bought you a couple of colorful posies
Kiss on the cheek, dance in the rain
Would you believe, twas all a pocketful of pain
Walking under the park’s tree
Lying among the grass and leaves
Laughing in the rain
Twas a pocketful of pain
Your first text to my phone
Smiling to myself when I’m alone
Counting days to see you again
Oh this was a pocketful of pain
Evenings spent on one knee
Sweeping you off your feet
Long drives, hand-in-hand
Somehow opened a pocketful of pain
I always knew it was too good to be true,
But still I tried reaching out for you.
You made me high, you sent me mad.
You made me reach out like I had never dared.
The short times we spent together
Shrouded in mysterious ether.
Till it came crashing down:
The reality and code by which we were bound.
Love can triumph over all, but it takes a soul
Not afraid to take a fall.
Tis neither were we. And so it died.
At least I could say I tried.
So frustrated by the fact I never knew
What ghosts haunted you.
Never got to see what was inside your heart –
No, perhaps not, but just a part.
A dark mystery of what could have been?
A bright future ahead if I could’ve seen?
I’m not one to walk away,
But that’s all that seems left to me today:
But ‘fore I walk away and let it be,
All I want to know, is did you ever love me?
Story behind the poem:
All I want to know, is did you ever love me, or was it all just a game?
picture by Dennis Wong
You gotta tears running down your eyes
Covering up with lies
Trying to say that you can fight it.
But this ain’t just a fight
That will last a night
It ain’t just a thing that you kick.
This is a raging war
Tearing down your door
Trying not to let it cave in.
I can see your grieving heart
And all it’s shattered parts
Lying awake at night remembering.
All the pretty things
Angels and their wings
Before the heaven’s turned grey.
No matter what you do
This storm will still scar you.
And you’ll still recall it another day.
Don’t let them see
Your greatest fear
But don’t lie to me.